OK so seemingly my struggles come to an end. I have booked a flight ticket and on 16th of January "Buckle your seatbel, Denes, cause Budapest is gonna bye bye" - grammaticly most incorrect sentence but it is more or less quoted from The Matrix. I somewhat feel ashamed that I suffering now at home. Can really just heart issues turn a living heaven into hell? I guess so. Once again the positive perception techniqe is stuggling to put me back on track. I think distance will solve all. Its good that I have chosen Coppenhagen as an ERASMUS destination because i am not the thinker type. It is said that its a little cold and windy and depressing in winter and some people even get depressed there literally. Thank god I am in no danger of being negative at all. Huh.

Changes will come, I can sense already. Maybe even too many to handle.
"Thats just the way it is, oh yeah"

So what is it that I leave behind? Friends will follow, and will wait. If they dont, they werent real friends so fuck em. The family will suffer I know. My sister came up to me the other day and said I should not go anywhere, she misses me already, and it is going to be really hard without me. That was the very second when it dawned on me.. its going to be one hack of a hard time for me as well. I must get to know loneliness though. I guess that is something that sooner or later finds you.
Now lets look at what IS left here. I want leave some habits behind. This is a new era, so head up, and Denmark, welcome the new Denes. He is a nice guy really, with no regrets, open to the world, open to any opportunity that comes in front, and he is someone that is as positive as one can get.

I hope I can do it. Cross your fingers for me, will you?