How many times has one to be told: "no"? Maybe its just me being a little bullheaded lately but there seems to be no limit for the no-s. Sometimes I put myself into this pity misbelief that I am not so stupid. Even at those sorry times of fooling myself when I feel like, I don't think I am an Einstein. Not only I believe that I do posess a sense of Humor which already differentiates me from every German on planet Earth, but well you know.. relative to what. Anyway, back to the no-s.. It should be clear by now that once again I am talking about that goofy impossibly chaotic relationship package that appears only between man and women. So, in this case if one gets a no, he or she should act accordingly. Whats the first thing you do? Yes, you guessed it, you write an SMS.. second thing you do? yes, you wait for an answer and Madonna just puts is good: "time goes by so slowly for those who wait".. so after you lost most of your predictable time of life remaining... you cant hold on any longer and make a phone call. Create an enormous amount of excuses for a repeat of a randez-vous (some that even you would not believe). Than the day comes and the appointment comes true. Same results as last time, and you end up with a no again. What did you think you fool? Same question from the same person to the same person, on the same week... same answer. Well, right, different caffeteria so that worth a shot. Jeee, I am getting tired of my own stubbornity. Fun fact, it gets worth every time.
Gabors: I know you told me, no need to bomb me with mails.. thanks :)

On the other hand its Xmas. Most wonderful celebration of the consuming society. Everybody cares about people soo much that they have to go and buy EVERYTHING out there. Great. My mom is a little depressed lately so she just fucked the evening up with a couple of well positioned sorry sentences. Plus add all the "no"-s I achieved, and you are starting to develop a mere picture of my state of mind. Merry xmas.

Oh one last note to those who send the "Merry Christmas for you and your whole family" SMSes to everyone in the phone book: "I love you, I love being in a list in someones phonebook. I did not reply because I forgot to."
I got 17 of those today.. and an other 4 that made me feel that somebody thought of me on the day that is supposed to be dedicated to those who really matter.